Bored

Note - Debbie Downer is filling in for Shannon in today's post - so sorry.

Hello all (if anyone is left that still reads my blog)

It's been a long time since I rock and rol.....oops, that's the song....since I've been blogging. I don't know what my deal has been lately, but I'm just...just...bored. Yea, bored...I think that's the best way to describe it. I've lost my umph....my mo-jo....my zest (be it orange or lemon)....my passion....even a majority of my humor. I'll apologise not for all the "...." - that's just my way of thinking.

Why am I bored? I dunno.

Let's start with work. I've been doing Ultrasound for over 10 years now. I do love it, really I do, but I'm bored. I just scanned 8 patients in 3 hours ( a pretty good clip - I'm known for my speed and beautiful studies - hey, a little pat on my own back never hurt {grin}) and here I sit waiting for the rest of my 5 hours to go by with only 3 more to scan. Long day indeed, but not as bad as tomorrow. I only have 3 scheduled for the entire day. I'm bored.

The ultrasounds themselves are not that terrible, but I'm bored. I do the same exams over and over. Liver, Renal, Aorta....repeat. Occasionally I'll get a pelvic or thyroid or something else thrown in there for a real treat, but all in all, I'm bored. I miss doing vascular exams, I did a lot of those while I was in Minnesota. They have a separate vascular lab here, so I don't do any.at.all. I miss the Carotid studies, the bypass grafts, even the DVT (looking for blood clots in legs) studies on the 400 lb, very smelly, challenge-to-get-in-their-groin type patients. Yep - I'm THAT bored.

I've lost my humor and light heartiness for the ever famous "so is it a boy or a girl?" type questions. Mind you that after the 100th time I heard that come from a 60 year old MALE patient - it was plenty old. Now after 10 years of it - I've lost my ability to give a convincing chuckle and say "twins - one of each". In fact they other day, I responded too quickly to the question, and I was busted by the patient. He said " you must hear that one a lot since you answered so fast. Here I thought I was the first one to think of it". It took everything in me to not throw out a few sarcastic remarks, but I gave him a smile and said "well, maybe just once or twice" and went on my way about scanning. I'm sure we all have these type of routine quips that every person thinks they are the first possible person to think this up. Barbers - please tell me you've had more than your share of bald guys come in and say "just a little off the top". As much as it pains me to hear the same old questions/comments, I am in no way ever mean to a patient, I do casually nod and acknowledge their quick wit, sometimes let out a little laugh, but my head is saying "really?....again?"

Along the lines of repeat comments, another thing that bothers me is when I ask a patient when the last time they had anything to EAT or DRINK (when they are to be fasting for the exam), they respond with such and such time last night - good. THEN when I change the question around a little "have you had any coffee or juice this morning?" they say "well yea, I had coffee" like I was an idiot for asking. I immediately want to slap my forehead and fall backwards onto the floor, but again I nod and say "ok". So let me ask a silly little question. If you haven't had anything to EAT or DRINK since whatever time last night? How the heck are you taking your coffee these days? Hmmm? It drives me nutty. Now - let me remind you that the main purpose of my job is to see inside patients. So...I can see INSIDE you. Usually the reason I'm asking these questions is because I have already seen that you are not fasting and you in fact have a stomach FULL of fluid and other items. Yes...I can see inside you...and yes I can tell that you have NOT been fasting. Tricky little thing I am asking such sneaky questions when I already know the answer. It's just like when you've been busted by your parents for sneaking out or something - like when they are standing in your room when you enter back through the window. They LIE. Seriously, just like when you make up some excuse how you were sleep walking and were about to fall out of the window to your death when you woke up and climbed back in. They lie about eating. I ask once, they say no. I reword it then it starts to leak out. My favorite is when they'll say "oh...yea. I had a SIP of coffee" "oh wait...I also had a BITE of a banana" really? who makes a pot of coffee in the morning and only takes a sip? and on top of it who opens a banana (which turns brown in like 5 min after opening) and only takes a single bite? Am I crazy for thinking these things? If this is the case they should weigh only about 80 pound's and must fell STUFFED. After the "sip and bite" comments I get one of two results. Either the patient will get really defensive and say they were not told or it didn't say anything about it on THEIR letter (because the printer left it off of their letter on purpose to get them in trouble) OR it will lead to them listing everything they have possibly eaten in the last 24 hours. "I had 2 pancakes, a piece of toast with butter, peanut butter and jelly on it, 2/3 cup of OJ, a half of piece of bacon because my dog took the rest off my plate when I wasn't looking. Before that I got up at 2:13 in the morning for my midnight snack (which is why they were 2 hours late to their appointment...another story) I pored a cup of milk but it was old so I threw the rest out, but not after I tasted it first to make sure it really was bad. I had 4 chocolate chip cookies, 2 oreos and a fig newton...mama loves the fig newtons so I can only have them when she's asleep so I don't tempt her with the treats...she's diabetic you know......blah, blah, blah....oh, and then a tic tac just before you called me in here." By this time I'm already done with the study and completely forgot that I asked any questions to begin with. As fun as all that sounds. I'm bored.

So - besides me whining and venting a little - ok a lot. What do you think? I think I'm bored with where I'm at. I do love the actual scanning portion of my job, but it hasn't felt like a challenge for me lately. I'm sure it's because I'm not as busy as I'm used to , but it may also be the fact that even the exams that I do scan, I'm doing the same patient every 6 months or so. We have A LOT of repeat patients. There are certain things that need to be followed frequently to help with treatment and prevention (ie Hepatitis C patients get Liver Ultrasound every 6 months or so to correspond with their medications, people with AAA (Abdominal Aortic Aneurysms - a weakening in the wall that makes them bulge) need to be followed in intervals to make sure it doesn't grow - eventually needing surgery before they rupture) so not only am I doing the same type of exams, I'm seeing the same exam over and over. So...I'm bored.

I like the branch of hospitals that I work for. I don't scan any babies (which I don't want to - for various reasons) so I'm limited on other places I could go. There's the thought of moving back to Minnesota and working at my previous hospital. I'd be busier which I would like and I'd have more of a variety, but there are still a couple people that work there that I don't get along with - and were one of the reasons I left. Plus, I'd have to take call again and I really enjoy not having to go back to work when I'm just sitting down to dinner with my family.

Dilemma

I'm bored. There are other areas that I feel "bored" in, but I'll have to save that for another post since this one is longer than I had intended it to be. Sorry for the down and out post. This is just something that's been on my mind. I'm not really upset or angry about it by any means, I'm just kind of....well.....bored.

Thanks for listening.

...hey...at least it's a post

I know I haven't been posting much. I wish it because of something really cool like I was on vacation or off having a baby or something fun...but no. I don't really have a reason other than I really haven't been all that pumped to post. Sad...but true.

So in a lame attempt to post something I give you the random ABC list of things about me. I found this lovely time waster in my inbox today and figured I'd pass it along on here. I'm sure it'll be more than you care to ever know about me...but here goes anyway.

oh...and if you're bored too - post it on your blog and then come and tell me about it so I can check it out. {grin}

A
• Are you available? No.
• What is your age? 31.
• What annoys you? Stupid People - but they also amuse me so.

B
• Do you know anyone named Billy? Yep.
• When is your birthday? November 30th.
• Who is your best friend? I have several - and for very different reasons.

C
• What's your favorite candy? Gummy Bears or Jelly Belly.
• Crush? Sure.
• When was the last time you cried? Yesterday - only because I was laughing so hard. The drive home from work can be pretty amusing.

D
• Do you daydream? ....wait....what?
• What's your favorite kind of dog? Weimaraner.
• What day of the week is it? Wednesday.

E
• How do you like your eggs? Dippin kind.
• Have you ever been in the emergency room? More than most - I work at a hospital. Personally, only a handful of times in my life.
• Ever pet an elephant? Yes - totally not what I expected.

F
• Do you use fly swatters? Nah.
• Have you ever used a foghorn? Yea - at camp once, scared the crap outta me.
• Is there a fan in your room? Overhead.

G
• Do you chew gum? Sometimes.
• Do you like gummy candies? OH YEA...see above.
• Do you like gory movies? Some I guess.

H
• How are you? Bored, otherwise FANTASTIC.
• What's your height? 5'6"
• What color is your hair? Dark brown with the occasional grey strands & red highlights.

I
• What's your favorite ice cream? Mint Chocolate chip - mmmm, yummy goodness right there.
• Have you ever ice skated? Yep.
• Ever been in an igloo? The kind formed by snow? yes. The cooler? Um...yes.

J
• What's your favorite Jelly Bean? Any Jelly Belly kind that should be considered a normal flavor. Popcorn, marshmallow and jalapeno should never, I repeat NEVER, be made into a form of jelly bean.
• Have you ever heard a really hilarious joke? Yep - even peed my pants once because of one.
• Do you wear jewelry? Some.

K
• Who do you want to kill? That would be a sin, so no. But if I had someone in mind I wouldn't list it here just in case something were to happen to them, I wouldn't want to be a suspect.
• Have you ever flown a kite? Yes.
• Do you think kangaroos are cute? Yea - in that awkward big footish kind of way.

L
• Are you laid back? For the most part. (I think)
• Lions or Tigers? Tigers.
• Do you like black licorice? Ewe no.....yet another flavor of jelly belly that never makes it in my bag.

M
• Favorite movie as a kid? The Muppet Move, The Pirate Movie and the original Star Wars flicks.
• Ever shopped at Moosejaw? I'm afraid to even ask what that is....so no.
• Favorite store at the mall? The one with the best sales...

N
• Do you have a nickname? Several - Shan, Shannie, Pete, Babe, Mommy (my favorite one)
• What's your favorite number? 02......don't forget the "0" in front of the 2, I'm weird like that.
• Do you prefer night or day? Like them both for different reasons.

O
• What's your one wish? Can't tell you, or it won't come true. {wink}
• Are you an only child? Technically...no.
• Do you like the color orange? Sure do.

P
• What are you most paranoid about? The safety of my children and finances.
• Piercings? 2.
• Do you know anyone named Penelope? Yep, even related to one.

Q
• Are you quick to judge people? Not usually.
• Do you like Quaker Oats? Not by itself, In my YUMMY bars...oh yea!!!
• Know anyone that makes quilts? Yes.

R
• Do you think you're always right? Not hardly, but don't tell my husband that.{grin}
• Do you watch reality TV? Oh yea!!!
• Reason to cry? Several.

S
• Do you prefer sun or rain? Rain baby rain!!! The stronger the storm, the happier I am. I think I get that from my Dad.
• Do you like snow? Heck yea - born and raised Minnesotan!!!
• What's your favorite season? Autumn and Spring.

T
• [What] time is it? after 2 pm.
• What time did you wake up? first at midnight, then at 1am (sick little girl) then finally at 5am for work.

U
• Can you ride a unicycle? Never tried.
• Do you know anyone with a uni brow? Yes....and my tweezers are itching to get a hold of her (muah ha ha ha)
• Uncles do you have? Living - 6 (7 with Jimmy, not actual uncle, I think he's a cousin but I've always considered him an Uncle)

V
• What’s the worst vegetable? Asparagus.
• Did you ever watch Veggie Tales? Yes, and I apologize to Archibald for my last answer {grin}
• Ever considered being vegan? Nope, this meat and potatoes girl could never go that way.

W
• What's your worst habit? ....
• Do you like water rides? For Sure!
• Ever been inside a windmill? Not a real one. The one at the put-put mini gulf place I went to as a teenager - but that was purely on a dare.

X
• Have you ever had an x-ray? A couple.
• Ever used a Xerox machine? Yup.

Y
• Do you like the color yellow? Sure.
• What year were you born in? 1977
• Do you yell when you're angry? Sometimes, but mostly I don't say anything at all.

Z
• Do you believe in the zodiac? ??
• What's your zodiac sign? Sagittarius.
• When was the last time you went to the zoo? On our Honeymoon in 2006, we're due to go again I think.


So there you have it. Hope you enjoyed reading. I'm just happy it killed a little time before I head home from work. Have a good day!!!