Wednesday, November 12, 2008

I can't believe I get to do this again!!!

Seriously, how Blessed can I be?

As I'm winding down towards the end of my pregnancy, I have been looking through some of the very first images I captured of Miss Brenna. To see again just how small she was, how precious every inch of her was (and still is). Then it hits me....I GET to do this again. WOW!! I mean I knew what was coming and that yes we'd have another little one with us, but how great is it that I (ok we, since I should include Jason...ha ha) get to be so lucky and thought so highly of by my Maker that I have the opportunity to carry this child, birth him, hold him, kiss him, teach him. What did I do that was so good that I get to be his Mommy?

This was taken within the first couple hours of Brenna's life. My girl, my precious baby girl. All I could do is stare at her in "awe". She was so alert and we just looked at each other for the longest time. I memorized every inch of her face - the little porcelain doll mouth and lips, her button nose, her huge doe eyes - every line, every curve. Again, what did I do to deserve such a wonderful gift, the honor to raise and guide such a beautiful child. And now I get to do it again...AGAIN.

Our gift all wrapped up in a little package.

I held onto Brenna like this all the time. Face to face so I could tell her everything I knew and felt. This little person, my daughter, has been brought into my life to not only test my skills as a parent, but to test my heart for it's ability to hold so much love for one person, to test my patience and acceptance, and test my pride and devotion.

AND....I get to do it again!!!!

I get to touch tiny little fingers like these...

...and little piggy toes like these.

Who wouldn't love to have this took look at day in and day out?

AND, and and.....did I mention I get to do it again?

I know they don't stay this small forever, I've seen first hand with Brenna, but to think that such an amazing being starts out so small. And I get to be her Mommy. She was picked out just for us. AND.....
Ahhhhh, isn't that just the best feeling in the


Kristina said...

Okay, this just made me cry! Yes, you get to do it again, and feel all those emotions all over again! How cool! Beautiful post, thanks for writing it :-)

shannonjason said...

Why thank you. Yea, I cried too while I was writing it. It's just such an amazing thing and I can't believe that I get to do it twice.